Hannah Grace!!!!

So... I found out yesterday that I am going to have a niece and her name is going to be Hannah Grace! It's really funny because almost everyone was convinced that my sister Erica was having a boy and me a girl(I still dont know what I am having) but it looks like we were all wrong about their baby! The whole time we have been calling the baby Elijah Charles(the boy name they picked out) but it turns out it is Hannah instead! I am SO excited!!! I know that Robert and Erica are going to be great parents and this baby is going to be BEAUTIFUL!!!!! I kinda hope we are having a girl so that my daughter and Hannah can be close.. only 6 weeks apart!!! anyway... I just wanted to share that!!!! :)

I wasn't there the day He hung the moon

There is this song by clay Walker that is called, "just a few questions." I can't think of all the words to the song(which is ironic because if it was playing I would know all the words.) But, the song basically asks questions about things that seem unfair in life.. such as how can we put a man on the moon and still have a need for a place like St. Judes? And how is one man born in a place where all they know is war, when we have always been free. How can two loving people who have built a loving home, try for years and never have a child of their own... why do some people die so young, why does some people get the chance to chase their dreams when some peoples dreams are ended so abruptly? These things have always been hard to answer.. why do these things happen? How can God let these things happen? However, its the chorus that really challenges me, it says BUT "I wasn't there the day you filled up the oceans, I didn't get to see you hang the stars in the sky, so I don't mean to second guess you or critize what I don't understand.. these are just a few questions I have." wow.. this really makes me think about the sovereignty of the Lord. His thoughts are highed than ours.. His ways is better than ours.. not that that makes it any easier to face questions like this. So, I turned to Scripture in thinking of these questions. After Job was faced with many many tests from Satan, he was questioning the Lord, and the Lord says to him, "Who is this that questions my wisdom with such ignorant words?""Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth?"Now, don't get me wrong.. I believe that the Lord wants us and is big enough for us to ask all these hard questions of Him.. However, we have to keep in mind that He is God.. He is good.. He is righteous.. and He is perfect... and we, in our human nature, are none of those things. When I think of life without God, my heart litteraly hurts. I don't know how people can face these questions without the hope of knowing that God is in control. This whole thought came from me thinking about our beautiful, unborn baby... I do not know how people can abort babies when they are clearly babies.. I mean..wow.. it is a life that God has entrusted to them, no one else can take care of my baby for the next 6 months except me.. So, why would I purposly let my baby down? The only person who can care for him/her? I just don't get it.. especially when there are couples who really want babies.. who try for years to get pregnant.. it just really gets me. I dont know.. I am just challenged to know that God is God. period. And maybe we will be able to bring a list of questions before the throne someday to ask God these questions.. I know I am racking them up left and right!! :)